Poem: God Breathed

The New Social Worker Online Blog: GUEST POST: The Trod -- A Social Work Student's View

I look at my shoes worn, holes and all, and I am amazed at my journey. I have travelled for five years, and my journey is almost at an end. Two more weeks have passed on my practicum site, and I am getting there. I am almost at the point where I am comfortable in my own skin, with my colleagues, with the people who come to me for assistance!! Isn't that something? God has been good to me! .... To read the rest, click on the link below and join me over at The New Social Worker Online Blog.


The New Social Worker Online Blog: GUEST POST: The Trod -- A Social Work Student's View

Destiny

Destiny

1.

Before you were thought of, I knew would be,

Before your feet touched the earth,

 I saw the power and influence you would wield,

2.

I saw the colour of your eyes, the shape of your face

The pain you would endure,

I saw beauty and a heart kind and pure

3.

I foresaw the lives you would mold,

The mistakes you would make,

I saw the trials you would go true,

but ultimately the happiness that would be yours

…

I see the future, I know the outcome

For I am Destiny!

© 2009

Generation Gap

Cries of a fifteen year old

1.

Do they see my pain? Tell me if they can,

Do they hear my cries do they understand?

2.

They murmur about the way I walk, the way I dress,

 About the very thoughts I express,

But can they even see my deepest fears,

And in my heart, the burdens that linger there?

Yet they try to tell me, to convince me that they really care.

3.

Adults!!! Sometimes, I detest the very word!!

Do they think that because they’re older, they should always be heard>

I’ sure they also struggled with very things I’m going through, so who gives them the right to crtiticize?

Tell me who?

4.

How can this be fixed, this chasm so wide?

How can it be mended, this great divide?

Should I make the first stride?

Should I dare tell them that I’m only 15, not 55?

5.

Well, I’ll make that first leap; I’ll put my heart on the line,

I’ll try my best to be loving patient and kind,

So don’t put me down, with snide comments,

Help me grow, be my friend!

© 2008

Shotta Man

True Freedom!!!

         

          I have been struggling with a particular addiction for many years now and there have been so many times where I relinquished the habit only to find myself picking it up again!!! Always, I was under the impression that God had truly freed me and like the woman caught in adultery I would go and sin no more. Recently I fell into the habit again; the ugly thing is the hate and disgust I feel toward myself after I'm finished. On Tuesday night, I felt Jesus telling me to pack my my bags and follow Him and never return to this ugly place of sin and despair. I did follow him but there is a fear threatening to overwhelm me to the point of oblivion.

           I fear that like those other times the temptation will be too strong and I will turn my back on God like I did before. I spoke to my mom and she says I'm being to negative and that I need to claim the promises of the bible more,. I'm working on that but I'm not sure if I believe them. I yearn to reach to a place where my heart will be desperately thirsting and hungering after Him. I want to be like Moses who after weighing the pleasures of this earth and the joy promised of God chose to endure hardships with his people because he knew there was better on its way. The question that looms over me like a hammer on a tiny piece of string ready to pop at any minute is WILL I EVER REACH THERE? WILL I EVER EXPERIENCE TRUE FREEDOM?

Almost there...

I am almost finished with my Bsc in social work and I am nervous as hell...I am however confident that God has never left me before and He will not do so now. That sure is comforting, I was even more empowered by the fact that it is a normal feeling that so many other prospective graduands faced. The authors of this article did a good job of alleviating my fears as well:

http://www.socialworker.com/home/Feature_Articles/Professional_Development_&_Advancement/Treating_New_Social_Worker_Anxiety_Syndrome_%28NSWAS%29/