Trustting God!

Today at 5:48 pm, I am sitting at the computer and I am on the brink of being overwhelmed. I just looked at the cost for both summer sessions and it is a whopping amount. One would think that based on past experiences of God coming through for the last three and a half years right on time with my school fee, I would have a little more confidence. Tsk, tsk. I want to trust Him wholeheartedly...I'm thinking that my lack of trust can probably be based on the fact that I totally am at a loss as to why He keeps providing and comforting after how I let Him and my parents down.
It is now 5:51pm. I just spoke to daddy and I believe that the Holy spirit spoke through him to me. Here's what daddy just said, "Don't worry, let me do the worying" Amazing, isn't it?
So at 5:43 pm, I am making this pledge: I WILL ALLOW GOD TO PROVIDE FOR ME. I AM TRUSTING HIM  WITH THE 7000 FOR THE TRAINING SEMINAR. I AM TRUSTING HIM WITH THE MONEY FOR BOTH SUMMER SESSIONS AND I TRUST THAT HE WILL PROVIDE FOR THE REST OF MY TENURE HERE. 

I am , "confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus." (Phil 1:6)

Fearfully and Wonderfully Made

Psalm 139 (The Message)

Psalm 139

A David Psalm

 ^1-6 God, investigate my life; get all the facts firsthand.
   I'm an open book to you;
      even from a distance, you know what I'm thinking.
   You know when I leave and when I get back;
      I'm never out of your sight.
   You know everything I'm going to say
      before I start the first sentence.
   I look behind me and you're there,
      then up ahead and you're there, too—
      your reassuring presence, coming and going.
   This is too much, too wonderful—
      I can't take it all in!

 ^7-12 Is there anyplace I can go to avoid your Spirit?
      to be out of your sight?
   If I climb to the sky, you're there!
      If I go underground, you're there!
   If I flew on morning's wings
      to the far western horizon,
   You'd find me in a minute—
      you're already there waiting!
   Then I said to myself, "Oh, he even sees me in the dark!
      At night I'm immersed in the light!"
   It's a fact: darkness isn't dark to you;
      night and day, darkness and light, they're all the same to you.

 ^13-16 Oh yes, you shaped me first inside, then out;
      you formed me in my mother's womb.
   I thank you, High God—you're breathtaking!
      Body and soul, I am marvelously made!
      I worship in adoration—what a creation!
   You know me inside and out,
      you know every bone in my body;
   You know exactly how I was made, bit by bit,
      how I was sculpted from nothing into something.
   Like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to birth;
      all the stages of my life were spread out before you,
   The days of my life all prepared
      before I'd even lived one day.

 ^17-22 Your thoughts—how rare, how beautiful!
      God, I'll never comprehend them!
   I couldn't even begin to count them—
      any more than I could count the sand of the sea.
   Oh, let me rise in the morning and live always with you!
      And please, God, do away with wickedness for good!
   And you murderers—out of here!—
      all the men and women who belittle you, God,
      infatuated with cheap god-imitations.
   See how I hate those who hate you, God,
      see how I loathe all this godless arrogance;
   I hate it with pure, unadulterated hatred.
      Your enemies are my enemies!

 ^23-24 Investigate my life, O God,
      find out everything about me;
   Cross-examine and test me,
      get a clear picture of what I'm about;
   See for yourself whether I've done anything wrong—
      then guide me on the road to eternal life.