Overcoming!!

I'm going thru a really rough period right now. I am struggling between satisfying my fleshly urges and living a life that God can be pleased with! I so want to do what I feel like but God has called me to deny self and follow him!! He asked Peter if he loved him more than anything in the whole wide world and Peter responded in the affirmative but it took Peter three times to really understand what God was asking of him. God wanted more than a surface type of love and in the same way, that is what he demands of me today; I'm just too scared to venture into that life of selflessness that He wants of me. I am scared; I feel that I have made Him too many promises and that one day, God is going to get angry and nothing I say to HIM will matter anymore. This sucks, but I've told Him that I will not desist in chasing Him, so He is stuck with me :).